I came across this post on Scissortail Silk blog, and instead of thinking of Reese and myself, I actually thought about my mom and I. I kept thinking about when my mom had me, and when I was Reese's age. I imagined myself telling her all this, but I also thought a lot of it applies to today too. Mother's Day is around the bend, and here's a little early Mother's Day lovin. Love you momma!
I’ve been meaning to tell you. I just haven’t had the words…
I appreciate what you’re doing. The early mornings and the long nights are hard. I’m trying to figure it all out. I know that you are too. We’re both new at all of this.
But I want you to know that you’re doing a great job.
I know that sometimes you worry. I know that you worry whether or not you’re doing it right. You worry that you might be messing up everything. You worry if I’m eating well or sleeping enough or too much… or even if I’m breathing.
I just wanted to take a minute to say, “We’re okay, and we’re going to be okay, because we have each other.”
It’s hard work being the mommy. I need you for everything.
I need you to feed me. I need you to change me. I need you to keep me clean and dressed and warm.
More than anything, I just need to know that you love me.
When everything is wrong and scary, or when I’m frustrated… just hearing your voice can make it better. The safest place in the world is in your arms. My favorite place to be is against your heart.
That heartbeat put me to sleep many nights. It kept me calm. It helped me remember that with each beat, I’m loved – that you wanted me.
If I don’t get to say it for a while… even if when I’m big and grown and I still can’t find the right words, will you remember this?
Will you hold on to these thoughts? Will you remember them on days when you feel all alone? Will you bring them up again in your heart when you need to be reminded of how much I love you?
Because I need you, mom. No matter how big I get… I will always need you.
So, even if I never find the right way to say it, you mean the world to me.
You’re doing a great job, momma, and I just wanted to take a minute and say, 'I love you."