14 September 2013

Letter from Mom

Dear Reese-a-roni,

Right now you've been in my tummy for 26 weeks and 3 days, according to my handy-dandy "What to Expect" tracker app on my phone.  Time has flown by, and I can't believe there's just one more trimester till you're here!  I was at Costco the other day, and they already have Christmas decorations out!  Once Christmas rolls around that means you'll be here! 

I remember when your dad and I found out your lil' bun was cookin' in my oven.  I found out while your dad was at school.  Honestly I was very surprised but so excited! I couldn't wait to tell your dad.  When I picked him up, I kept it inside the whole ride home (so hard!!) because I left the positive pregnancy test in front of our mirror in the bathroom for him to stumble across when he went to the bathroom.  When we got home, he plopped on the couch and went on to tell me about school and what not (heaven knows I wasn't listening to a word because all I could think about was what he was going to say when he found out!)...blah blah blah was all I heard...then he went to the fridge and scrounged around for some grub.  Meanwhile, I was DYING, and it had only been just a few minutes! I couldn't take it anymore, so I inconspicuously asked your dad, "Don't you have to pee?"  He gave me an oober weird look as he guzzled down some milk straight from the carton (I hate that!).  He asked me why I wanted to know, and I tried to play it off like why WOULDN'T I want to know...can't a wife just ask when her man's gotta pee?  Yes...weird.  Needless to say he went into the bathroom, and I sat on the couch waiting for his return.  Seconds later he popped his head out and gave me a jaw-dropping, are-you-for-serious look.  Then we both kind of froze staring at each other in an awkward lovey-dovey sort of way.  Then we snapped out of it, and he ran and gave me huge, multiple squeezes and kisses.  We continued to say, "Wow, this is crazy!" a million times over for the whole rest of the night.  Neither of us could really wrap our heads around what just happened.  And we still haven't really wrapped our heads around it to this day, but man oh man we can't wait to hold you in our arms!

I remember when we went in for our first ultrasound when you were about 10 weeks old.  You were itty-bitty, and we could barely make out a little baby.  But when they let us hear your heartbeat, things got real!  I of course started tearing up, and your dad's eyes lit up!  I'll never forget how excited he looked and how hard he squeezed my hand! He's gonna be wrapped around your finger, I just know it.  

Not gonna lie girlfriend, it was a rough first four months...you must've been tossing and turning and soaking up all the energy you could get, 'cause I was sick as a dog those first four months.  Your dad was the most considerate sweetheart...he took care of you and your momma.  We watched lots of 24 (really intense TV show with a man named Jack Bauer...he's the man!) while your dad would just let me rest my head on his lap, rubbing my back.  I remember after the first time I threw up, which was while we were watching 24, your dad was a champ and cleaned everything up.  It was the first time I've thrown up in front of him, and he always said he was never very good at handling throw up, but he was.  When I finished throwing up and while he was cleaning off his scriptures (yes, I threw up on his scripture, gross!!), he said very matter-of-factly, "You're right Ashton, throw up isn't all bad when it's your own wife...because I like love you, ya know?"  Haha, he was so serious.  It was very cute. 

Over the past couple of months, you've been awesome!!  No sickness or anything!  We go on a lot of walks now and the occasional stair climbs by the duck ponds at BYU.  I even throw in some pre-natal pilates every now and again...haha we do these pelvic thrusts sometimes that are very funny.  I can't take them very seriously, but supposedly they help in delivery....we'll see about that!  

Basically, everything is so new to your Dad and I, and I can only imagine they'll get newer and newer as you come into this world and grow up.  You'll be our first baby...our "experiment" baby so to speak haha...you're a brave girl volunteering to come first! Disclaimer for the future:  we will not always have the answers! We will not be perfect! But I can tell you this...we will love you PERFECTLY.  I can't imagine what it will be like when you're actually here, but if it's anything like how much I love you now, then know that you are loved SO MUCH!  

You're coming into two pretty wonderful families too...lots of great aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents.  Sweet merciful...you've got some awesome grandparents!  Your dad and I feel pretty lucky to have grown up in the families we did with the parents we did.  Your Grandma Hawley and Grandpa Barrett are spectacular...they have the biggest, most generous hearts! They'll love you to pieces.  Your Grandma D and Grandpa D are also spectacular with a capital "S".  They will hold you tight whenever they see you, always happy for you to be around!  They already love you and can't wait to meet you!  Especially your Grandma D, your namesake.  She's taught me a lot about being kind-hearted and selfless.  Your dad and I both feel like you're going to have that same heart of gold.  You'll be an amazing sister to your younger siblings...even when they're annoying and make you wanna pull your hair out, try to remember how much they look up to and are just happy to be around their big sis (easier said than done sometimes!)!

Bottom line is that we're really excited for you to come!!! I know with absolute certainty that you're meant to come into our lives at the very time you are.  I know you'll be a special blessing to this family...you'll bring happiness into our lives that I don't think we'll ever fathom!  

My prayer is that you'll grow up knowing you are a daughter of God.  That you'll have confidence in yourself and your ability to change the lives of people around you!  I hope you always feel your Heavenly Father's love and that He knows you personally...your name, "Reese Lynn Barrett", is engraved on His heart.  I pray you always know how much your parents love you no matter what! We will always be here for you...ALWAYS.

Love you so much already Reese-a-roni!! I cannot WAIT to meet you!!!!

Love, Momma

Here you are at 16 weeks when we found out you were a girl!


  1. This is just about the cutest thing I have ever read!!! Such a great idea! Little Reese is going to LOVE it! What a stellar momma!

  2. Oh. my. This post had me laughing and crying!! You have such a way with words and when I read it, I can hear your voice. I LOVE this! And I apologize in advance because I will be doing something similar soon! You are and have been such an amazing example to me. You radiate light and did even before you were pregnant! You are going to be the best mommy! Reese is soo lucky to have you and Todd as her parents!! I love you to pieces!


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