08 April 2010

confession(ok so i guess it's not a confession because it's really quite obvious & anyone who follows this blog already knows...): i have been the worst blogger lately. i vow from this day forward to be much better...well how about i vow to be much better once finals are over. FINALS...this looming group of tasks just waiting to be checked off my to-do list. summer is creeping up behind me everywhere i turn, mocking me that i have 2 whole more weeks left. but HA the joke is on summer because i have just that....ONLY 2 MORE WEEKS LEFT! soon me & summer are going to best friends. inseperable. it's inevitable.

so two days ago, my children's literature class started back up again! any classes in the el ed program go on a break for about a month and half where some students go into the surrounding elementary schools and student teach. well i haven't started student teaching yet, so i had a nice little break, but i must say it was SO nice to be back in the hussle bussle and exciting world of children's lit. the lectures are a little long (ok A LOT long...3 hours) but i love going through the books and talking about them...it's fun to go through all the books i read as a kid and pre-teen...brings back lots of sweet, sweet memories. you know how a certain song can stir up the most vivid memories of things like...oh that boy you had a crush on in the 7th grade, those sweet, lazy summers by the pool soaking up the sun's rays, those long, get-me-out-of-this-car-now/man-i-love-these-people-i-call-kin, family road trips or that much-anticipated, didn't-think-you'd-ever-make-it day you walk up to the podium at graduation and your principal that you always made fun of but now have a strange bitter-sweet love and appreciation for hands you your diploma? well the same kind of emotions get all stirred up when i reread certain books i read growing up...

here are a few ive been delving into lately...each with their own memories:)


i specifically remember thinking that if i woke up from a coma, and the first news i found out was that my mother was killed, like the main character in this book-Stacy...i would rather have stayed in a coma my entire life. i remember thanking the Lord that day that i had my mama to take care of me. i remember feeling absolutely wretched and like the biggest brat in the world for how much i took her for granted. i remember immediately running downstairs and hugging the heck outta her, apologizing profusely.


stargirl is her name. and dancing is her game. she ran outside in the rain during school and danced in the parking lot all by her lonesome with her guitar swaying by her side. i remember wanting to be just like her.


i remember saying id live in a big city when i was older, just like the main character in this book, hope. & id go to the same 'ol lil diner every saturday morning where shirley, my waitress that always worked saturday mornings who knew me very well & i had a special bond with, would ask me if i wanted "the usual"...butter pecan pancakes with a side of cheesy hashbrowns. yum.



2 comments :

  1. OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS ASHY PANY WANY I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU TO BE COMING HOME I JUST CAN'T CONTAIN IT AND I COULD GO ON LIKE THIS FOR PAGES AND PAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU BUNCHES AND BUNCHES AND BUNCHES AND BUNCHES!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE FROM YOUR LIL' SIS AYAH ;)

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  2. Hang in there. This week will be tough but you'll get through. Three days.. get her done : )
    Love you Ashbee

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